Posted by riot on December 14, 2008, at 0:56:46
I wanted to take some time and thank everyone on this website for their time and honesty. When I first stumbled here, I felt like I was at home. I got long responses, with people going through the same struggles I was.
I have been depressed for most of my life. I remember having anxiety attacks before the age of 7. I grew up with a Borderline, BIpolar, Depressed, anorexic, drug addict/ alcoholic mother. My father was incredibly distant and grew very emotionally and verbally abusive in my teenage - early adult years.
I'm the middle child and a classic Scapegoat.
I left their house for good in May 2008, moving to a new state to start over. My partner, took me in and understood I was in dire need of psychological care. I was finally able to settle down, get clean, and start the work.I had no idea what I was getting into. I had very little hopes or expectations, and two basic goals. Stabilize my emotions, Regulate other symptoms.
After about 6 drug combinations and a ton of "diagnosis".. I can finally say I am ok with my *diagnosis and doing ok on my medication. Most importantly, I see my therapist once a week and I am also in Premarital Counseling with a woman who specializes in woman with sexual abuse history.
* Major type 2 Depression, GAD, PTSD
I finally am sleeping, working one day a week and have been making huge progress in therapy. I am so happy and in such a better place then I was 6 months ago. It has taken a TON of hard work, and devling into painful memories, but I can say I am making significant progress.
Thanks for reminding me I can do this. It's a battle I face every day, but I no longer fear the battle.
Thanks again.
poster:riot
thread:868638
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20081205/msgs/868638.html