Posted by Dinah on October 13, 2008, at 20:06:29
In reply to Re: So scared, posted by DAisym on October 13, 2008, at 12:24:25
My therapist asked me if it was the disgusting part that got to me. I don't think it can be because in my course of dog owning, I've been involved with way worse stuff. The grossest thing I ever did involved draining a cyst.
While we were discussing it today, I pointed out that short term I can do things. I can blank out for a while. I just can't keep it up. He was asking me a lot of questions, and being so supportive. I think I understand more now how totally out of it I am during the whole thing. I get upset with myself because there seems to be no reason for my being unable to stay. But he reminded me how often my body makes autonomous decisions that I've had enough, and that it probably is beyond my conscious control or full awareness. I do see now how dreamlike it all is.
poster:Dinah
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