Posted by susan47 on August 28, 2008, at 12:19:55
In reply to The Need to Reveal What Happened, posted by susan47 on August 28, 2008, at 12:08:49
And I am still telephoning his office from time to time, leaving the odd message here and there, especially when I feel suicidal, God I wish I didn't know what that really meant, but I do and I don't have to be doing it to feel it. That is my whole problem, the essence of my problem in this life, is that I can feel anything and I do.
F*ck it.
F*ck the whole damn thing. Because now I have to tell someone else, maybe a whole lot of people, I don't know, I have to reveal that I am still Doing It, still making calls now and then, still posting, still writing, Writing about the hell of it all, the hell I am living being Forced into living this day, and the heartlessness of some people, therapists included I don't care how it sounds. It just is.
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