Posted by obsidian on July 23, 2008, at 19:54:42
a regular basis...for like a week now,
and that last week I was already 'out of it'?
I so did not want to tell him
I'm still not sure I should tell him
I feel like I have to
Pretending I'm not smoking feels yucky
and I am having trouble trying to stop
I'm uncomfortable otherwise
even on the two days I didn't smoke
I had to pop an extra klonopin each day
like I just cant cope otherwise, I just have to be calm somehow
I don't want to tell him
that I am not sure I can handle this
I can make some bad decisions
but I don't care
because I just can't handle it
I can't handle the anxiety
not much at all
I am getting less and less active into trying to make decisions. I don't want to make any decisions. I can't make any kind of decision.
poster:obsidian
thread:841669
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