Posted by Happyflower on June 30, 2008, at 13:07:29
I am sorry if I am posting too much, it seems like so much is going on. But now I am more worried about my T than I am about myself. He just had heart surgury 2 weeks ago and they told me he just had a virus. But my T would tell his secretary to down play why he is in the hospital, so I am sure there is more to it than a virus. He will be in all this week. Plus I don't have an appointment next week either.
I called my old T and told him to just remove my request to see him. I told him I didn't want to cause my T any more stress in his condition especially about something that has to do with me and my old T. And my T did say it wouldn't be pleasant for him but he wanted to do it, but now with what has happened to him, it is best to just forget it.
I have crying all morning wanting to post here, but not feeling I should. But I just don't know what to do, I can't go to my T about this, he is in the hospital.I am so worried he is going to die, everyone I know that I care about has died.
I am sure it is just a coincedence that both my T developed heart conditions while seeing me. I just feel like I am not strong enough to get through this. I hope he will be all right, I know he has a stronger fighting spirit than anyone I know. He means so much to me. I just don't know what to do.
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