Posted by backseatdriver on June 25, 2008, at 15:20:33
Hi Babblers,
Well, it looks like I've reached a point in my therapy where I'm trying hard to connect with my T and the connection is working. He's under my skin. Better than that: I'd be surprised if he didn't feel the same way.
This is a huge step for me, because I have trouble feeling when people care about me. I can't really say how or why I know he cares, except that *I* care, and this feeling seems somehow too strong to be just me.
He apologized sincerely at our last session because we're going to miss our next appointment. I was able to take in the apology, another first for me. Something about the interaction seemed to point in progress along this axis -- feeling cared for, as opposed to just knowing it intellectually -- as well.
Now, though, I am longing to see him again. I find this position highly uncomfortable. Should I just go with it, holding on to the loving feelings even though they hurt? Or should I shut these feelings down, in order to spare myself the hurt? Two weeks is a long time to go without seeing him when I am feeling this way. At the same time, I don't want to set back my own progress by doing the old shut-down routine.
Hugs to all,
BSD
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