Posted by raisinb on May 21, 2008, at 9:06:01
To therapy, that is.
Okay, I admit I'm a bit hypomanic at times. I get up early, work out, clean my house, make healthy food, get my papers graded, talk to my friends, and do all kinds of things I'd never have been able to do a couple of weeks ago. And I'm still not sleeping that well.
But I'm better emotionally than I have been in months, perhaps even years. When I get sad, it's only because I am sad for myself and what I have been through, and I resolve to take better care of myself in the future, to be gentle with myself.
It is hard to believe that a week and a half of an antidepressant could do so much, but I think I have been working towards this place all along and the med gave me some kind of jolt I needed to solidify things.
I'm taking a three-week break from therapy at the moment and I have an appointment next Thursday. But why rock the boat, is what I am thinking.
Oddly enough, I don't miss my therapist. I get enraged at her periodically, but no sadness because I'm not seeing her. I think about ending/going back, and I think, "well, it doesn't matter that much either way, right? I will come through it and be okay."
Hmmmm.....sure hope this stuff doesn't stop working :) But what to do about therapy? It's bizarre to me that something I agonized over for three years is so in the back of my mind.
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