Posted by B2chica on May 1, 2008, at 7:54:31
In reply to B2. sure nice to see ya posting :-), posted by muffled on April 30, 2008, at 15:25:52
thnx muffly, i was feeling up to it yesterday. and it was keeping my mind busy. actually makes me feel like a worthwhile human being not wasting air.
the date is gone, and the breath of death is extracted, but i'm still in pain. i keep asking how much longer (to be in this state of pain). to no one, to everyone. i have no answers, only more questions.
i'm trying to write more. but the d@mn zyprexa has me so freaking tired in the mornings i about fall asleep at work. even coffee and ritalin doesn't help much.
when i talked with T yesterday, she mentioned that pdoc could consider upping ritalin and maybe that would help...but i still don't see pdoc till middle of may.
heck i'm about dozing off now. this s*cks.
'keep writing' i'm hearing in my head. i think it's one of my 'inner's'. so onward i go.
i got an invitation this weekend to my nephews HS graduation in may. so i can't, i wont off myself because of that. i HAVE to see that wonderful kid graduate. it was heck trying to get him this far (lol) getting that kid to study, he's so smart but he was so bored all the time with his homework, i still think it was too easy for him but that's another story. Anyway. he's the last of my nieces and nephews to graduate HS and i can't miss that. so i'm grabbing on to ...well nothing... to hang on. GOD i love that kid.
thanks for the compliment, but i certainly do NOT feel like a smart cookie, i feel pretty slow. in fact i told T yesterday i feel a little delayed on the zyprexa this time and usually i don't, but she thought it just might be cuz i was getting used to my fast thinking (being a bit manic) that i feel a bit delayed....and what type of cookie exactly would be the smart one? which ones are dumb? for some reasons i imagine the m&m cookies would be the dumber ones...not sure why...maybe cuz i'm hungry for some of those and i want to be those right now?
seriously though...thnx.
b2c.
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