Posted by ClearSkies on April 24, 2008, at 16:53:48
In reply to Re: somebody engage me...**S. TRIGGER** » ClearSkies, posted by B2chica on April 24, 2008, at 14:21:13
> on three different occasions i've tried to get my appointment "upped" with my pdoc. usually it only changes by about 2 days.
> oh but last time they got me in that next week, but when i got there 1) i was double booked and 2)it was with the WRONG DOCTOR!
> his staff sucks!
> its useless.
>
> i've got a few days yet, we'll see how tomorrow goes. maybe for sh@ts and giggles i'll call his office, see what they can mess up.
>
>((((B2Chica)))) I know how fruitless persistence feels right now - but from where I sit, I can't see that you're getting the very best from your pdoc. His level of attention, his ability to see you during a time of crisis, it all feels wrong to me from here. This is not the right time to go on a campaign for better care, but it's something that could make an enormous difference in your overall outlook. Something to think about <tomorrow>, as Scarlett O'Hara might say :-)
I am glad that you have engaged with me this afternoon, and I hope that some of what we've talked about is of some worth for you. I find that when I am in my darkest of places, I simply cannot be my own advocate - and that is one of the things that I value so highly about Babble.
You, B2Chica, are worthy - on your own merits. Without the little one and even your relationship with your DH, the very You is enough - is more than enough. I have taken to reading daily affirmations to help with my own beliefs with this regard. Fighting the internal and most evil of imps who resides deep within my soul, who, at the slightest of opportunities, taunts me with my lack of credibility, intelligence, street cred... you name it. I ain't no Dalai Lama. But ClearSkies, such as I am, is a worthy being, just as B2Chica is. Our illness clouds this from being able to believe it from time to time.
Hang in there.
CS
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