Posted by sunnydays on January 15, 2008, at 20:27:06
In reply to anxious... will he be there? will he be the same?, posted by sunnydays on January 14, 2008, at 22:01:57
....and more or less the same. He said it was really nice to see me back, in this really warm voice, with a smile, and that was so nice. It felt like he really meant it.
We talked a little about how it is really hard for me to remember anything when I come back to school - I get on the plane, fall asleep, and wake up in a different world. And it's like I never left. And I had a hard time talking about being home, because I feel no connection to being there. I don't understand why, and it feels weird.
My T seemed very interested and said that part of it is the trauma stuff and that part of it is not having a stable parental model, someone I can depend on to be the same. So I have trouble believing the world will be the same in three or four days as it was today, and it's hard to remember that far ago.
Does anyone have anything to add to that? Do you know what he might be talking about? I expect I'll bring it up again at some point.
sunnydays
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