Posted by Dory on October 16, 2007, at 23:20:56
i'm happy, but T will be gone until next Monday now.
i hope i can hang onto this from today to carry me through...
the session wasn't so great overall... he'd ask me something and i would tell him that i felt there was a wall there that prevented me from telling him. we talked about the ground lost and stuff like that.. i was disappointed...
but then he said the most amazing things...
before he left i wrote out the details of a specific "event" from my childhood. i have always felt stupid about it... like it was insignificant because of exactly how it was done... but that was part of it, to keep me quiet. Before i was about to leave he said he wanted to say something about that letter, if i was ok with doing it now with so little time left.. (ok so i wish we'd had more time) but i told him that if he didn't say whatever it was then i would fill it in with something.
so he told me that what i had wrote was powerful.. i think all my colour drained away... he asked if i minded that he said that...(???? are you kidding?!) he said that he sees all sorts of stuff, and it's only every so often that something really hits him physically and this was one of those. My heart was pounding in my ears and i wanted to cry.. i told him he didn't have to stretch it and he said no, he could really feel it and he said it was horrible.
he said it was horrible... he said it wasn't stupid at all
i cannot even begin to describe what that means.
we are limited in the language we have for emotion like this.
i was just motionless... all i could say was that was meaningful to me..
i wanted to cry, fall down..i knew he wouldn't run from the room screaming at any point, but i never expected such a deep reaction from him. This hit me like a tonne of bricks.
poster:Dory
thread:789674
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