Posted by muffled on September 21, 2007, at 14:54:49
In reply to Re: healing?, posted by Daisym on September 21, 2007, at 14:11:35
> You "fix" broken things.
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> You "heal" wounded souls.
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> It is OK to want to heal.*OK.
Thanks daisy.
I am so dizzy. I think mebbe hubby should get kids.
I gonna try and nap.
But OK. So I need fixing cuz my brain was born broken and so I screwed up alot. Any soul woundedness is my own fault, or perhaps the fault of my defective brain. I dunno, could be my brain got hurt when I was little too or something.
I have no clue bout that. Mebbe I was dropped on my head.
Just know my brains not quite right somehow.
And its just the way it is.
So mebbe insteada always blaming myownself for all my pain, then I can blame mother nature for my defective brain.
Thats all I have.
I do NOT have memory of nothing.
Random emotions that scare me, make me feel bad. But none makes any sense. Triggers don't make sense. Nonsense.
There's places my brain don't go.
But I can be assured nothing happened to me.
Cuz I would know.
You can't just not know.
That is not possible.
I think its just faulty wiring in my brain.
Its just so hard cuz nothing makes sense why I feel what I do.
But I keep going for my kids.
They need their Mom. Defective brain and all.
Ramble.
This why I can't sleep.
I am afraid.
But I dunno why.
I don't want to go to sleep.
Nonsense.
M
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