Posted by Sigismund on August 13, 2007, at 4:06:51
In reply to Re: question ***suicide trigger?, posted by slugdoo on August 13, 2007, at 3:01:44
All my life I've thought about suicide, certainly since I was 10.
No big deal, I don't plan it or anything.
And I wonder with it.....what precisely am I getting at with this?
Do I distrust the fabric of consciousness, or is it a response to social stress, is it a consequence of freedom, or a reaction to depersonalised states?
Even if you can say 'I hate myself', the question for me arises 'what, precisely?'
I've never known.
The same drive can be positive, I think. It is what brought me to therapy (take yourself apart, put yourself back together).
I certainly don't want to take lessons in loving myself, although acceptance is different.
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