Posted by slugdoo on August 12, 2007, at 16:09:09
In reply to Re: I saw him » slugdoo, posted by Tamar on August 12, 2007, at 14:22:52
LOL, I am laughing so hard, I forgot about the slug phobia! Well I renamed my self, and I don't think Dr. BOb would allow shug sh*t, so it is slugdoo. I wanted a name that explained how bad I feel, and my old name was just tooo.... uggg... happy. But I will change it again soon.
I believe I told my T on 3 phone messages of how i feel. The first one was right after my session where I told him how I feel about that session. Then the next two was one's after I saw my new T, where I told him how much he means to me, and how grateful I am of what he has helped me with, etc. A lot of good sentiment stuff. So I think I got my out what I wanted to say to him. But my new T thinks my old T might become defensive of his actions and instead of listening to me on how I feel. So I might even feel worse about it. So I kinda agree, I said what I needed, and I don't need anything from him. I remember the good stuff, and I think I know how he feels. In spite of the way the last session went, I think I am okay because I said what I felt. Am I still hurt? yes, but I will eventually get over it. Am I still angry? yes, but I will get over that too. As far as what will happen with our relationship, I don't know, and right now I don't care. I need to concentrate on myself and therapy. I think things will eventually feel more comfortable at the gym, and so I will leave it up to him if he wants to talk beyond "hellos".
As far as discussing that special feeling I have had for him from day one, I do plan on talking about that with my new T. My new T talked about his "soul friend" who is a neuro T he has known for years. So I think he might be more willing to discuss this. My T was resistant to it because he doesn't believe in any such thing. I dont' know if I do either, but I wanted to talk about it.
Soooo, that is what I am thinking now, but I am still open for suggestions. ;-)
Thank you Tamar, I know it sounds like a broken record, but it is nice to have you back! ;-)
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