Posted by peddidle on August 8, 2007, at 13:43:16
School starts on the 29th. I've been mostly OK so far, but I suddenly feel like I need to hear from my T. I never heard back from her after my last two emails (the most recent one was 7/6), so the last email I got from her was on 6/12. I'm a little angry that she never emailed me back, but I tried to convince myself that she was just on vacation, or that she read them and meant to reply later and just forgot-- neither of which would be out of the ordinary for her.
The counseling center is open again for the year, so I know she's not on vacation. I keep hoping that she'll randomly email me, but I know she won't. I want to email her, but I don't have any reason to. I mean, I would have plenty to tell her if I was having regular sessions, but it's mostly stuff I've already emailed her about, and none of it is urgent. Plus, I don't want to send another email just to have it go unanswerd.
I meant to call her private office and listen to her voicemail last night, but I fell asleep before I got a chance. I guess I can listen to it tonight, but it's not the same.
Depending on how early I go back to school, I can possibly see her the week of the 27th, but that's still a few weeks away. That's also a source of conflict because I want to see her, but I don't want school to start.
I don't know why I have this strong need to contact her all of a sudden. Maybe I just need to be reassured that she didn't forget about me, and that she'll be there when I get back-- but I don't know why, because I know both are true.
Sorry, I guess I'm just venting,
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