Posted by LadyBug on July 5, 2007, at 14:19:30
Today marks the first week of four weeks that my T is gone. I've done alright so far. Sure I think of her all the time, but I haven't had a crying spell where I've wanted to see or talk to her. Maybe I see that I CAN manage without her. I think about how I'd like to terminate and just can't bare the thoughts of saying goodbye to her, ever! Maybe it would be easier to just decide between appointments to never go back one time and call it good. This is called bolting, not termination.
She sent me a nice note in the mail the other day and I carry it with me all the time. It sits on my night stand when I go to bed, then I bring it to work with me. She signed it Love, ******. Does she love me? I think so even though I put her through a lot sometimes. My life has just been such a roller coaster and she gets to listen to my same old sob story every week, just more of everything that happens in between.
I am emotionally drained right now. Making some very huge changes in my life. I'm sad that she's gone during this time, but I WILL survive, I have to.
I think I could hang out at camp comfort till the end of July. Right now, I need it to be cool as it's over 100 degrees where I live and that's HOT! Maybe in the mountains somewhere?
I have 3 more weeks to go, but I'm going to be fine! (Positive thinking!) I have such separation anxiety it's hard.
LadyBug
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