Posted by Dory on June 8, 2007, at 0:12:52
i feel guilty for all the messages and cyber hugs i get from people saying they are sorry it's so hard for me right now. Really guilty.... things really are really hard, but i get through each day you know? People on the street don't know things are hard. i have a roof over my head (for now), food, the basics of life and i have my two puppies (one of which is dismantling a coffee cream container on the living room rug).
i have a lot of days where the mental/emotional pain overwhelms me but in a sad way i am used to it. Things have been a nightmare in one way or another for a couple of years. My life seems stuck in chaos mode. Can't break the cycle. But i still feel guilty... like i am whining or being a drama queen.
i am waiting for my T to tell me to just f*cking get over it already. i know my last T was very very frustrated.. and it was obvious to me. In our last session i told him so and he couldn't deny it.
i left a message for my T telling him i will see him on Monday but might not be able to continue beyond that. i will be getting more hours at work but i don't make much money. i am not sure what i will do.
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thread:761782
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