Posted by gazo on March 25, 2007, at 21:12:32
In reply to Re: the night sky » gazo, posted by Daisym on March 25, 2007, at 14:50:01
You are very very sweet.
> "I just want to matter because of who I am, not what I do." It is so painful to have this be an internal truth. When I touch this spot, it makes me feel flayed open, like a fish plucked from the sea and gutted yet still alive. It is that painful.
it is. thinking about how much I pour into things.. for what? No one notices. No one sees me as a *person*
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> I wish the world offered a way for everyone to feel wanted and useful. I wish we all had people who we knew would miss us if we were gone.I have spent a LOT of thinking thinking about just that. It kills me that no one would really miss me. There are distant friends and family... but no one who would miss me because I wasn't there everyday. There wouldn't be a hole in anyone's world. There isn't any close friends or anyone nearby. I am already removed from everyone life in a way.
> can you feel their loss if you weren't here?
no.. except for my pet.> gentle hugs today,
Thank you Daisy. That was very thoughtful. I appreciate you taking the time.You know, you mentioned romantic love... *sigh. I have no desire for that really. As much as I would jump at the chance with my T, he has no interest in me. I know that there aren't many men out there who *aren't* T's who would have that level of understanding. No offense to any guys... just those men have been trained to really hear how you feel.
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