Posted by muffled on January 9, 2007, at 22:04:56
In reply to Re: freaking out.. therapist story--long..trigger, posted by youngaddict on January 9, 2007, at 21:13:57
> hey
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> so it took her until just now to call me back and then she sounded so concerned like, "how are you" in a soft voice. i said "ok" but i really wanted to scream "everything is wrong and i hate myself and i wish that i wasn't me that i was someone else and i wish i had the courage to kill myself"
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> i don't even like being with friends anymore.
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> i wish my t knew all this.**:( Sorry its hard. God I hate the waiting for the phone call thing. It SO sucks.
I liked your last line on the post, 'I wish my T knew all this'.
I went thru that too. There was SO much i wanted to express but couldn't. Partly cuz I was so confused, but partly cuz I was scared, partly cuz I just didn't even know how to begin......
I still bad at it, but what we have evolved into doing, is I write her faxes and send them, and then she reads them in the session and we talk about them. This has worked very well for me.
At first my faxes were long and we didn't cover much, and my T just plain MISSED alot of stuff cuz she still didn't have a handle on me cuz I would say so little.
But now it is going SO much better.
So if you can e-mail or fax, or just hand her a piece of paper with your thots, well mebbe that could start something for you.
It all takes time it would seem.
But talking about all the seemingly inane type stuff like how T pisses you off and stuff helps ALOT, in alot of ways.
Sorry this is so long, I just trying to explain and I not so good at it.
Take care,
Muffled
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