Posted by muffled on January 4, 2007, at 0:09:06
Ok I will try this..
One of my ikids is really scared cuz Bobs got all the power here. He can hurt us so bad.
My T is away.
Mostly I OK. But blocking seems to be a seriously large trigger to some part of me. Its tied to the rage, and tied into my protection. It explodes. Its a trigger to an explosive device in me.
I don't direct rage at others, I direct it at myself.
I'm scared. Cuz for some reason i can't seem to understand the civility stuff. Its so confusing to me. I can't remmeber if I got some pbc somewhere waiting to get me.
I get so scared.
And even as I write this some other part is taunting me for being an idiot.
I get all split up when I stessed and tired. It makes me more confused.
That being said, i will go to bed.
Muffled
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