Posted by youngaddict on January 2, 2007, at 22:54:31
In reply to Re: stuck in a therapy rut » youngaddict, posted by sunnydays on January 2, 2007, at 22:25:21
thats cool if its normal. i mean i think that -but sometimes i wonder what is SO wrong with me. i was going two times a week and then i asked to come 3 times because i was not in a good place. then i got better (which corresponded with me getting clean). so now i don't want to go that much but i'm afriad to tell her i have such a fear of rejection that i do things i don't want to do all the time.
but now i am getting high agan and i think falling into such a deep depression. so maybe i need to go.
but i have such a problem opening up. i want to trust her. i do. but in some sick twisted way shes become like my primary caregiver and i want her approval so i am censoring things. and i need her to push me harder to talk about things, because i don't want to and i need that push or i won't talk. you know?
thanks for listening.
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thread:718715
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