Posted by SatinDoll on November 10, 2006, at 17:06:21
Okay I have a session on Wed. and I don't know what to do after the last one. I feel sort of weird, like our relationship changed or I changed, or something is weird.
I keep thinking that I must have really hurt my T feelings by first saying he fell on his head, and then saying I meant every word of it. Well in fact I think he was about to tell him that what I said got to him I think, but he stopped. I know T's are suppose to not let it get to them, but I think my comment and feeling torwards him might have stung a little. So now I feel bad, like I did something wrong to someone I care about.
But then again he isn't mine to care about, our relationship isn't going to go anywhere anyways. So what does it matter in the long term if I might have
bruised his ego? He has hurt me afterall at times, so is that how relationships are?I just don't know what to say next week and for some reason I am feeling the "flight" reflex of wanting to run and hide away. I am not sure why. Maybe I feel like I am going to get hurt. Don't know, maybe I need a nap.
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