Posted by ElaineM on September 10, 2006, at 13:03:37
In reply to Re: called a hotline » ClearSkies, posted by wishingstar on September 10, 2006, at 10:51:02
:-( helplines are not the most comforting options for support, huh. ((((((wishingstar))))) I'm sorry you are so paralyzed. I know there's nothing that feels like it's truly helping when you're so low. It's really good that you are trying to find stuff to do during the day. I still have six colouring books I bought during the winter when I couldn't walk and was too depressed to focus my mind to do anything else. Choosing between different shades of blue to color Donald's shirt was as much as I could handle. I really did all this too. It helps time pass. I mostly watch movies now. If I knew which you were renting I would've done the same :)
I'd be worried that a hospital admission would not be what you were hoping for -- I wouldn't want you worse. Maybe they are different where you live, but I find them absolutely terrifying. The only reason I would go there would be if I was in immediate danger of killing myself, or if I was severely medically injured. But you know, sometimes I would give just about anything to give the days some variation....maybe the hospital thing sounds better in those moments :( Have you called the hospital's Outpatient Mental Health Services number yet? (does yours have one)
It takes a long time to get appointments where I am too -- a long time. And that's just the worst, because time moves differently when you're waiting for something to come -- waiting for ANYTHING to come. And even slower when you're waiting in so much pain. Sometimes I would swear it moves backwards. If I were you I would probably end up showing up to any meeting Anne or Laurie offered me, but go into it with no expectations other than to kill time and commit me to a later date in the future -- I think that's the basic reason why I showed up to see that counsellor of my own. You may even come out of it feeling a little more cared for as a bonus. I am convincing myself that CC cared for me more than she did. But I mean, whatever helps you get through another day, right?
I hope someone at the university will offer you a better solution. Please keep waiting through this part. (((((((((((WS))))))))))))
blove, EL
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