Posted by caraher on July 21, 2006, at 22:12:59
In reply to all these different boards *triggers*SI, SA, SI, posted by james K on July 21, 2006, at 16:35:35
> Not because I'm miserable, but because I can't stand the view if I jump up and look down at the big picture.
It sounds like what you call the "big picture" is almost *defined* as your depressed point of view. Life is made up of a succession of moments. If you're OK with the ones you're having right now and "looking down at the big picture" causes you to lose hope, how about just not looking down?!
> I'm not self injurious right now. I split my head open a few weeks ago with the phone. I was so hurt about the circumstances involving my new job and harrassment by a mean person, and when the emotions hit, I didn't want to feel them, so bashed my head with the hand part of the phone. Somehow split it open. another permanent scar. No thought or premeditation.I'm curious about what "counts" as self-injury (from a mental health practitioner's perspective). I know exactly what you mean about no thought or premeditation, and when I don't manage to suppress the urge I tend either to bash my head into something or otherwise strike my head. I've never seriously injured myself this way - no bleeding, scars or fractures - though I have broken objects and damaged walls.
When I've brought this up with pdocs, etc. they dismiss it as unimportant. And maybe it is unimportant. But I wonder how different it is just because I don't cut and haven't yet managed to seriously injure myself...
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