Posted by crushedout on June 30, 2006, at 17:57:32
What a weird messed up day.
I tried seeing my T in her other location, which is in a neighboring state. The drive was supposed to be 50 minutes according to mapquest so I left myself an hour and a half. It ended up taking me two hours. So I drove four hours round trip for a twenty-minute session.
The whole session was weird because I was so late and seeing her in this new setting and everything--it really kind of derailed me. But I tried to take it in stride and raced back home for my co-op shift.
I did child care and met some really, really cute kids and had a pretty good time with them. Then this horrible, horrible woman showed up who I ended up getting in a fight with she was so rude. She told me "it was a good thing I didn't have kids" in a very unnecessarily rude way (because I wouldn't let this one boy bounce a big basketball in the room, which I seriously doubt is allowed--why am I defending myself to you guys???). Just trust me. This woman was awful. I kept telling her I didn't want to argue and she kept repeating how glad she was that I didn't have any kids (among other things). I exclaimed to her "you are unbelievably rude" as I was leaving and she starting yelling stuff after me. It was really, really awful. I am not a nasty person. I just get really mad when someone pushes me too far. And she pushed me too far.
Can anyone relate? I know this is a mish mash of stuff, but I really just needed to vent all this stuff. It is rough being this mad and not being able to act on it in some way. And feeling this let down about therapy and not being able to talk about it with my therapist till Monday. I feel I have to put all my feelings away till then because I don't want them all over my weekend.
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