Posted by susan47 on May 26, 2006, at 11:46:38
In reply to Ever tape-record your T?, posted by pseudoname on May 26, 2006, at 9:41:55
Wow, that is kind of weird.
I mean, I can understand it because I've felt that way too. But I just couldn't see carrying anything like that through. I know why I felt that way. Why did you feel that way, like you wanted to do it? I didn't trust myself.. I thought that if I listened, later, and the physical attractiveness part of him being in the room with me like that... I thought maybe the way my mind was translating things wasn't accurate. I thought that maybe what I was hearing and seeing was influencing what was actually being translated in my mind. I thought that if I taped and listened later, without the seeing, without the intense attraction I was feeling, without the melding of character and form and being-ness I felt, I would hear the real message.
Also, I didn't trust myself to remember anything, because sometimes what i thought were really valuable things he was saying, were going whoosh, right through that space between my ears, and I was forgetting half of it as soon as he was saying it. I was so intensely mesmerized by him... he was yummy ...
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