Posted by madeline on May 15, 2006, at 20:10:06
In reply to Well, here you have it. ***CSA tigger****, posted by madeline on May 15, 2006, at 7:55:20
I don't know WHAT was wrong with him, but he really seemed to be almost angry at what I was saying.
I was crying and blubbering the whole time and maybe he was upset by that.
In fact, one time I had to tell him not to yell he got so worked up.
My dad used to do that, get all worked up when I made the slightest little mistake.
I would be mad at my T too, but I just don't have it in me. I'm to tired to do anything but just let his anger just wash over me. I think he will resolve it himself and everything will be fine on Wednesday.
Life is really funny. Today when I got home from therapy I was making a list of the pros and cons of suicide. I could only think of one reason to do it, freedom from pain. I had a whole list of reasons not to. Most of them pet related, then realized my guinea pigs were out of hay and had to go to the pet store. I doubt if anyone in the store realized that just 15 minutes ago I was rationally trying to figure out whether or not to end my own life.
I'm glad I decided to live another day that's always the right answer.
Surely to god I will feel better tomorrow.
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