Posted by fairywings on May 12, 2006, at 14:01:27
In reply to I Feel So Far Behind, posted by DisposableDoll on May 12, 2006, at 4:01:37
I agree with B2, please don't self harm, it only makes things worse - speaking from experience, and hating your body feels awful, I know. I compare a lot too, it always hurts. Seems I only see those who are prettier, slimmer, more educated, and have fulfilling careers.
I'm sorry you have all those medical bills hanging over your head. You said you're not in shape. Can you try just a little exercise? I know it sounds simplistic, but often just getting out helps, sometimes it becomes something you love. You're in therapy, right? How long have you felt so bad? Is your T helpful?
About marriage. I remember being at the place where I just wanted someone special to marry. I look back now, and I wouldn't change anything - I have 4 beautiful kids, and my husband and I are working hard to get things together - it's a struggle. I know it seems it's impossible, but hold out for the right guy, and don't rush into something just because it's out there. Someone to love you and care about you is worth the wait. Are you in any activities where you'll meet nice guys?
I hope things start feeling better soon.
hugs,
fw
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