Posted by fairywings on May 11, 2006, at 13:41:34
In reply to Re: I'm here » fairywings, posted by curtm on May 10, 2006, at 18:04:57
> ** My kids might be lucky, but my wife thinks I am undeveloped emotionally, have no self control, and over-react to everything. She can't tolerate my mood swings sometimes and says that my attitude is negative and "threatening." By threatening she means that I make indirect remarks to belittle her. I think she would not do it again if she had the chance. I push her away because I want her to be closer. Aargh! and I always hold grudges, especially against her.
I understand this...I push my husband away when I want him the most....and then I get upset when he walks away....not out loud, to myself. I think he's supposed to read my mind or something. I finallyl admitted it to him, so maybe I'll stop doing it....I know, he knows, I can stop being angry, right?I hold grudges too - esp. when I'm hurt. I can't tell the other person how I feel, so I hold it inside, including the memories. And...I tend to be moody. I'm sure I'm a barrel of laughs!
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> Sometimes I just want to get on that boat and spend time alone sailing on the cool and bright clear water (Little River Band) hoping that it lands on a completely deserted island with one of those Bud Light beer trees and maybe some cannabis plants.**I sometimes want to run away, but want to take my husband with me - no kids - and just for awhile. I haven't had a break in 16 years, haven't had a vacation in at least 5. My own fault. I'd like to go to Disney, Vegas, and just sit by a pool somewhere warm and sunny, do nothing but sit, read, and play on the computer.
Then I'd be ready to get back in the game.fw
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