Posted by wishingstar on April 11, 2006, at 21:11:48
In reply to It depends » wishingstar, posted by orchid on April 11, 2006, at 13:51:02
Does it sound like my expectations were unrealistic? :( I guess its possible. But I think if I continually tell myself that she isnt going to develop any special attachment or special caring for me, I wont be able to open up and be real with her. I KNOW thats true (intellectually).. but I cant think about it all the time. I guess it's too painful.
My intellectual side definitely knows that she wasnt going to call back. I really didnt expect her to at all. But that stupid emotional side still kicks in and is hurt, no matter how much I try to justify and understand it.
I guess it just feels like more than an issue of control and stuff right now. I'm very good at keeping my emotions all tucked away (thats the biggest hurdle I fight in therapy.. being able to talk about feelings rather than thoughts). I just dont know how to control this. If anyone knows, I'd love to hear. This is all really new for me.
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