Posted by barna on March 31, 2006, at 2:54:40
Have you ever asked your Ts what they think about you, what they feel when listening or talking to you, what do you mean to them? I've been in therapy for almost two years and I feel real deep love for my T, very special love. I know she also loves me, but I guess she loves me the way she loves all her clients, or perhaps in a different way, I'm not sure about this. Do Ts feel the same love for all their clients? Or is it different for each different client? I guess it depends on the T. I would like to know what I mean for my T, but I guess the answer will be that I'm just a client, a part of her work. This is hard, but it also helps me to accept reality. I will never be special for her, or perhaps I won't be as special as she is for me. I'm conscious about the fact that having a friendship with her after therapy would be almost impossible, since it would be very difficult to reach a balanced relationship, but I don't lose the hope. Perhaps this hope will help me to suffer less when I decide to terminate therapy. I now see her as a friend and it's hard because I would like this relationship to be reciprocal, but this is not possible right now. In the future, who knows... I will leave a door open to destiny... For the moment I will enjoy the therapeutical relationship, I think I still have a lot to learn.
What do you think? Am I being ingenuous?
poster:barna
thread:626982
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