Posted by All Done on March 30, 2006, at 14:46:01
In reply to Once a week vs. twice a week, posted by All Done on March 28, 2006, at 17:22:14
Thanks for all your thoughts and insights!
Annierose, I shared your analogy with my T last night. He really liked it. :)
We talked a little about therapy at twice a week getting "harder before it gets better". I can't imagine feeling any more attached to him. I don't know how much more my nervous system can handle. Literally. My pdoc gave me a prescription for Ativan, but I didn't seem to feel any different when I took it.
My T told me he thinks, by my recent actions, I'm asking for and needing more contact with him. He's right, but I'm afraid of it. I'm also afraid if I add a session, I won't be able to call between sessions because twice a week "should be enough". And I don't know how to control the side of me that decided it's okay to call him and need him so much. He thinks now is a good time to re-evaluate the boundaries. I said, "*re*-evaluate? We never evaluated them in the first place. I just made up what I thought was okay." I imagine I erred on the side of caution.
I begged my T to tell me exactly how many phone calls between sessions are okay with him, until I decide or figure out a way to make two times a week happen. I also wanted to know which of his three phone numbers I'm supposed to use. I told him he needs to write a manual and give it to all his clients before starting therapy with them. Of course, he didn't hand me an outline, but he told me he knows it's *not* enough, if I don't call him at least once between now and Saturday, when I see him again. So, why am I so afraid to call?
Sigh. I'm sorry I'm rambling. I really do appreciate all your thoughts and I think I know twice a week would be helpful. I'm just afraid of getting anymore attached than I already am.
I feel like I'm falling apart. :(
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