Posted by Voce on February 11, 2006, at 2:45:04
In reply to Re: I didn't go to work today » Voce, posted by muffled on February 10, 2006, at 14:04:11
I think my mental health day was a success. I don't feel as maniac anymore. Now I have to deal with the guilt of actually taking it.
I am glad you like the image of the fish. Unfortunately the aquarium is closed for renovations until 2008. :-( So I can't go there. But I do remember it really well because it was my favorite part. It was a huge blue circle, a ring really, and it was quiet, so quiet. And yet there were thousands of living things swimming around and around in an endless circle around *me*, only around me because when I went there I was alone for awhile there. Hundreds of fish, huge fish and tiny fish, all swimming together, never stopping, with quiet, steady, undrainable energy. I like to think they were all breathing in unison, hearts beating and blood pulsing until they could only move as one formidable, unwavering body.
It was so quiet that I could close my eyes and feel my own heart beating and my own blood pulsing, and my own lungs breathing and somehow I was stregthened and protected by all of those other beating hearts and breathing lungs. If I could, I would have taken a sleeping bag and curled up there in the middle of that warm ring and gone right to sleep. Because when I woke up I would still be there, surrounded and protected by a thousand other beings.
I hope you like that image. I go there in my thoughts sometimes when I need a safe place to go.
Have you read "A ring of endless light" by Madeline L'Engle? The description of the dolpins singing is the closest thing I can compare it too.
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