Posted by Damos on February 2, 2006, at 19:57:04
In reply to I want out of this!, posted by fairywings on February 1, 2006, at 20:35:10
Aw Fairyings I'm sorry you're feeling like this. Sounds like you might be having a double whammy thing going on. Don't quite know how to explain it but for me it's like I start to slide because I don't feel x or y, say loved and cared about for example. But then when someone says or does something that feels like they might love or care for me, that voice tells me that I don't deserve to feel those things and well you know the kinds of self talk that goes on. I get into this circle of around and down. And because I don't deserve it I act all weird in response and then beat myself up for being such an idiot. It sucks. I think it starts from a deep belief that nothing about us is important enough to bother anyone else with or something. Just know that you do deserve to feel loved and cared about and that the more you can be open to receiving it without judgement or attachment the better it will be. It's hard to change the habits of a lifetime, but you can quieten that negative self talk.
Sorry FW I've probably just been talking out my *ss again. Sending you lots of love, hugs and good energy.
poster:Damos
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