Posted by andromeda on January 16, 2006, at 10:37:57
In reply to Re: How's this for a plan? » andromeda, posted by Dinah on January 15, 2006, at 20:18:38
> Is Lamictal really enough to numb you? I'm not on all that much, but I haven't noticed that it does that.
Depression numbs me. When am on Lamictal I do nothing and care about nothing. When I try to go off I begin to cry all the time and have suicidal thoughts, which ususally scares me and I go back on meds because I don't feel safe to go through memories/feelings. Have two kids at home and they don't need to see that either.
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> If the memories didn't come in the thirtyfive years you weren't on medications, are you sure they will now?Memory's did start to come after 35 years and then I was put on meds. Memory's have leaked through in last 14 years but without feelings. So it doesn't even feel real to me. I am not sure of anything. I know the feelings will come.
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> I think we all want to go off medications now and again, and if you're careful and under medical supervision, and with medical approval, it shouldn't be all that dangerous. But I wouldn't try to pretend to take medications that your hospital tries to give you. I imagine there are medical repercussions to having them think you're doing one thing when you're really doing another.I would do this because as soon as your stablized your out. When I was hospitalized before I was a walking zombie and they got me out the same day my insurance ran out. If I refuse the meds outright I will probably be kicked out. Now my insurance will pay for first 5 days and than insurance pays for unlimited days. Its an HMO so they are going to get me out as soon as possible.
Thank you for feedback it helps me work it out.
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