Posted by Pfinstegg on November 14, 2005, at 18:36:58
In reply to Re: Today's session ... update » Pfinstegg, posted by Annierose on November 14, 2005, at 17:37:33
What you went through today sounds very familiar, to me, and also sounds like a frightened, wounded early part trying to make a connection, and to seek reassurance. You probably don't feel so good right now ( I don't think you needed to apologize, though, for expressing your true feelings), but what you are describing sounds like the real work of therapy. Your T. did give very heartfelt and reassuring responses, but there might be a part of you which finds it impossible to believe that she really means it. It certainly sounds like she does, though!
Your session sounds very similiar to mine, today! My T. doesn't actually give as many reassurancs as yours does, but he does always seem pleased, and very much with me, when these early parts come out with all of their (our) fears and longings. I am finding that the sessions themselves are awfully hard, but that, afterwards, I gradually begin to feel better and more confident. No matter how painful, I've learned that when my different ego states get to express themselves, I am going to feel better- not right then, but later. At first, it was weeks later, but now it's more like a few hours.
I don't think you need to feel ashamed, or apologize, for anything you felt or said- it was from a real part of you.
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