Posted by B2chica on November 3, 2005, at 8:59:50
In reply to Re: graphic discussions? **trigger** » B2chica, posted by antigua on November 2, 2005, at 12:44:04
> with all due respect to your dbt therapist and taking responsibility, this isn't something you have to take responsibility for--your reaction is, of course, but taking responsibility is accepting part of the blame and in NO WAY are you responsible. Never. I'm starting to believe that this is really true (sorry, I'm a slow learner).
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> You need to let it out, just as I do, in a very safe environment. If you feel your T is safe, then maybe that really is the best place.
> I'm here too, just as so many others are, so take strength from us to heal.
> best,
> antiguahi antigua, don't worry bout my DBT therapist, after telling my T about this 'class', my T said that that is not really true DBT and he was disappointed (in the program not me).
i'm beginning to think that saying all this stuff to my T might have lifted a heavy brick off my shoulders and i feel like i'm scrambling to get it back.
i don't know why i'd do this but i feel like i am. maybe a comfort zone? sick, i know...ok, this is a **trigger** section.
after my abuser would find me he would have me take off my clothes and he would 'finger' me- he usually kept his clothes on but touched me all over and sometimes put his finger inside me, at either end. i don't know how else to describe it. is this how i should tell my T? is there a better way to word this?
after re-reading this, i can't help but feel responsible- i mean if he kept his clothes on and he had ME take off my own clothes???
i just don't understand all this. i can't seem to wrap my head around any of it.
and i feel scared.
b2c.
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