Posted by Shortelise on October 27, 2005, at 20:46:10
In reply to Update **trigger**, posted by antigua on October 27, 2005, at 18:43:40
Antigua, can you ask yourself why you chose someone who could not respond as you thought you would have liked him to respond?
Can you ask yourself why you asked knowing he might refuse - and you did know - knowing how much it would hurt if he did?
Can you look at where his refusal has sent you and ask yourself if for some reason this is where you wanted to be?
Where does it get you to think of yourself as a freak, damamged, unhealable?
We set these traps for ourselves, then we fall in them, and there we are, up to our necks in caca again. I do this too, and I see many others here doing the same thing. I think that for me it's because I know my "madness" better than anything else, I am in a way comfortable there: that's my familiar old caca that I've sat in for many years. It's known territory.
Keep working, Antigua, keep going. You are headed in a direction that I truly believe means healing. That path is never smooth.
((antigua))
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