Posted by fallsfall on October 23, 2005, at 16:24:19
In reply to Re: Chapter 3 » fallsfall, posted by Tamar on October 23, 2005, at 12:30:22
He does let me make the decision. He just tries to provide input so I can make a good decision.
I'll have to ask him why he won't read Babble. Is it because it would take HIS time (so, would he read it if I paid him to? Why should I pay to refute his counter-transference?), is it because he wants all of his information to come straight from me?, Is it because he isn't interested in what Babble truly is, but is only interested in how *I* perceive it? I have given him (and read to him) a couple of posts. But I always feel like he doesn't want to hear/read them. I think because he isn't interested in what other people say, only what I say (but I can't just read him my posts, because they don't make any sense without other people's posts. The importance is the interaction - not a single post.)
Maybe this doesn't come up in real life because in real life you don't have a record of what was said. In some ways, I feel like I'm dragging him (kicking and screaming) into the information age. Is it unreasonable for me to expect him to do some research on his own for this?
now we are getting into Chapter 4...
Chapter 4 has to do with how I feel when I think that someone else is asking me to do their job in addition to mine. I want to save Chapter 4 for my therapist (we've talked about it a bit in the past). It enrages me - quite out of proportion - clearly transference of some sort.
So if I'm going to save it for him, can I journal about it? Or will that bleed the intensity off, too? How do I hold this until tomorrow? How do I time it so that I freak about this at 11:01 AM Monday? How can we schedule these things? It seems so artificial. Can I try to figure out some of this myself?
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