Posted by 10derHeart on October 17, 2005, at 13:01:25
In reply to Re: I don't feel the same way » fallsfall, posted by Dinah on October 17, 2005, at 8:52:54
> I also guess I think it's stupid that that's what is most on my mind.
I don't - at all.
More than 10 years?
With what me means to your life, personal stability and well-being?
It took me nearly 12 months to recover from the "loss" (ONLY moving across the country AND I could/can still talk to him as I please by email) of a T. I only knew for 2.5 years, and only closely worked with for meaningful therapy for 8 months! So, was I monumentally stupid for that to be THE first and biggest thing on my mind every single day when I woke up for months and months on end?
I probably thought so at times. But not looking back now. Nope. I was most humanly refecting the depth of his importance to me and my life at that time. And frankly, how much I love him.
Hmmm... Dinah, (sorry for the weak metaphors, etc.) the *house* is falling down around you and now you can't even rely on, or find half the time - the foundation of said *house?* Even weirder and worse, the *foundation* seems to be asking you to help hold it up a little, and understand how it's struggling and not really strong and stable ...to that idea I say: eeeeeek!!!!!
Stupid to worry and think about that? Uh-uh.
You are doing so great, considering. Even though I know you often don't *want* to be doing so *great.*
It totally sucks being an adult at times like this - *THE* adult in your environment, even worse.
Yup - it does. I so, so get that.
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