Posted by gardenergirl on October 8, 2005, at 17:28:40
In reply to Re: My sessions this week ***maybe trigger***LONG » antigua, posted by Annierose on October 7, 2005, at 16:35:21
Antigua,
I have similar feelings of longing to be held by a loving father figure. I tend to muddle up relationships with male authority figures with all the "dad" stuff I carry around--essentially the experience and memories of doing everything I could think of to "earn" his love and attention and always "failing".It's such a deep-rooted, primitive longing. And it's one that doesn't seem like it can ever be filled to satisfaction. My T and I have recently been talking about how it's something to be grieved, and also that marriage is about the closest thing I will ever find to this. And of course I love my husband dearly, but he doesn't feel as emotionally available as I would like or that I need to try to fill that void.
It's so hard.
And I think I can understand a bit about how you have trouble connecting the daytime father with the nighttime father. It sounds like a very adaptive thing to do.
I'm sorry you're struggling right now. I hope that this rough patch in therapy smoothes out and you still find it helpful.
(((antigua)))
gg
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