Posted by fairywings on September 21, 2005, at 6:33:50
In reply to Re: Dream Analysis anyone? ****Trigger****, posted by sleepygirl on September 20, 2005, at 23:40:15
thanks sleepy, happy, and damos,
i talked to my husband yesterday and he's coming home tomorrow, i am depressed and lonely, but i don't want to be around anyone either. having him hold me would be good, but he doesn't understand. i don't have any friends who would even come close to understanding, so i can't ask for help.
what i feel/see is everything inside me just wailing in sadness and pain, and i want to hold those parts and comfort them, but i can't feel it on the outside, other than feeling depressed about everything, i can't cry. i dont' respond to any part of me in anger, i try to comfort, but often it just doesn't work, or they pull away when they're really sad like this. i don't know, i just don't understand it.
i have called every day to see if my t has a cancel, and he doesn't, so i have to wait. sometimes i feel like i can't make it, other times i think i'll be okay. last night i took ambien and still couldn't sleep, got up at 1:30 to take another, that never happens. it always works. trying to fall asleep, in my mind, i saw myself shoot myself in the head. i'm glad i don't have a gun. i don't think i'd do that, but you never know what you'd do when you get this way. this is not like me at all. i hope it stops soon.
thanks,
fw
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