Posted by JenStar on September 15, 2005, at 0:39:38
In reply to I hope I wasn't too brutal, posted by Dinah on September 14, 2005, at 22:25:52
hi Dinah,
The whole situation sucks, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that you were uprooted, that he was uprooted, and that you are all starting over in new spots.I'm glad you were able to see him, and that it calmed you down somewhat. I hope you're able to hold onto that calm and infuse your center and your gut with it, so that you don't feel the disturbing thoughts. You're a great, wonderful person -- and you WILL be able to survive without your T. (I know you might not WANT to, but you CAN!)
I'm guessing that it feels like safety is over and immortality had been dealt a huge blow, and the barely-holding-on-by-the-fingernails system for coping you had cobbled together is splintered apart. But I know you'll get your system back together again, whether it's with him or with someone else. And I reckon that you're a whole heck of a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for, and maybe stronger than you really WANT to be. But I think you ARE strong!
I don't know if I said anything that makes sense. Sorry if it's all rubbish. :) But truly, I do think you will survive this and be stronger for it, even if it hurts like h*ll right now and even if it seems that it will never get better.
Take care of yourself. I'm hoping for the best for you, whatever that is. Please be nice to yourself. :)
JenStar
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