Posted by muffled on September 10, 2005, at 23:16:15
I'm putting trigger on anything even remotely controversial so I don't screw anybody up, little f*ckup that I tend to be.(oops, not supposed to diss myself). Anyhow, this board is interesting(its the only board I been on), its like real. Its like real life and interacting with people but you can stop and think, so for me that removes my 'freeze-up' problem. See, I can't interact with people very well cuz I always end up saying something stupid or hurtful or somehow screwing up and I don't meanto and then I just want to run and hide and stay away from people cuz I hurt them. I'm even doing it here. I can't even get it right when I got time to think. I don't want to hurt anybody. There's WAY too much hurt in this world already. :(
Mebbe thats why I can't look at T. I'm just so f*cking ashamed as to who I am. I'm not supposed to be.I don't think I am, but there's no other explanation. I don't want to cause any pain.
poster:muffled
thread:553527
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20050901/msgs/553527.html