Posted by pinkeye on August 3, 2005, at 13:42:19
Tomorrow, I am going to terminate with my current T. And I won't be able to see her after that.
I will also be doing a phased shift to India, and may not have that much access to internet and computers for quite a while.. I might have some intermittent access, but I am not really sure. So I won't have babbles support as well.
And my ex T hadn't written to me for 7 months now, and I don't think he will ever write again.
My current T says I should find someone in India and continue to work on my CSA issues. She really thinks that is the key problem I still have. She says, I still haven't felt angry or resolved the feelings. I don't know how to access my anger.. And she says I have lot of anxiety still, and insecurities.
But I won't find someone in India willing to do in depth emotional therapy. They would dismiss me in the first appt as being all fine - because I talk well, and even if I tell anyone repeatedly I have problems, I am going to be dismissed lightly or told something like "try to focus your mind on something else useful". And it won't work for me - becuase I do feel bad and while I can focus my mind on something else and can occupy my mind with other things (as I already do anyway), I still want to really heal myself, and I won't get the indepth support from anyone.
And I will have to adjust to different things there - adjust to living with my in laws, and dealing with my father again and his interference in my life. And I am little terrified of how I am going to handle everyone and everything.
Any suggestions?
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