Posted by kerria on July 25, 2005, at 9:19:56
My life is a horrible mess. My h is always angry with me about money- i make as much as i can, disability is taking five years and counting . i'm disabled because i have DID and can't get to work most of the time. there's not a way. Tears .It's so frustrating.
The pain mmgent Dr is always so suspicious of me. Even accusing me. i can't live in the horrible pain. There isn't a way. He makes mistakes on the prescriptions- like writing 'Oct instead of July' and then i have to go back now. But there's another problem. Tears. There is terrible pain that i can't live in .Why do i always have to defend myself for not being able to live in it. i CAN'T . i NEVER misused the medication , NEVER. Why is he always suspicious ? Why does everyone in my life wanat to see me suffer?
Is there something about me? i'm honest, i don't hurt other people. i work the best i can. i don't have anything myslf. i don't want anything except to love others and receive love. i just don't want to be attacked anymore.i was suspended from a survivor support group that i'd been in for about four years because people hijacked my thread and a part 's viewpoint about my H - the part thinks h is daddy- a person that doesn't like me wanted me to be out. It's so unfair. Everything is.
tears. i wish i just don't want to be attacked . Teras . Everyone wants to attack me
PLeae help find out why/. i don't know what to do to change it. It's so horrible.
kerria
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