Posted by pinkeye on July 20, 2005, at 20:51:59
In reply to Re: I understood the problem with me.. » pinkeye, posted by pinkeye on July 20, 2005, at 20:27:35
Now I understand why I always had such poor self esteem.. Why I was so dependant on men.. It was because I thought of myself as a zero and them as 100.. I thought of me as completely wrong always, and thought they are right always. That is why I had such poor self esteem.. I didn't give credit to myself at all.. and instead gave it all away. REally, even with my ex T, I took all the responsiblilty for my therapy.. I went out of the way to help myself.. I sought advise, read, worked on myself, and he guided me.. but I didn't take any credit for my improvement myself and gave all the 100 % credit to him. I have been doing this all along in my life. I really thought whatever I ended up doing was because of my father's efforts. Well, no, I did it in spite of the problems my father caused me. I should have really given myself much more credit.
This sounds arrogant, but I should become little more arrogant.. I should not be so meek and timid.
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