Posted by B2chica on July 18, 2005, at 12:23:22
ok, i think i need a few warm fuzzies. ok, here goes my whining: my T's secretary just called and cancelled today's appt. she said it was a family emergency which means he probably has to go out of town.
part of me hopes everything is ok for him and his family, the other part wants to crawl in bed and cry. i really feel i needed to talk with him today. it just seems like my depression is coming back and i don't know if the meds are pooping out or if it's something else that's bringing me into this coma type feeling. also my S. thoughts are coming back. well i should say i don't think i want S. not like i did before but i just want to disappear. i want to leave everyone behind and just run away. (to another bed that i can crawl under)
i'm starting to get tired of these feelings. nothing makes me happy anymore, i'm neglecting all my family and it's an effort to stare at a wall.ok, self pity party over.
thanks for putting up with me babblites.
b2c.
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