Posted by crazy teresa on July 16, 2005, at 12:16:15
I am so depressed at home I loathe my days off. I've stopped cooking, cleaning, and caring whether I do anything around here or not. It was going in that direction when I hurt my back last July. Then when the doctors told me I couldn't do things like run the sweeper, make the beds or lift more than 5 lbs., it just gave me an excuse to give it all up. I have recovered to about 85%, but can't get motivated to do anything. I look around and I'm overwhelmed, so I do nothing. I need to go get groceries, but don't care and haven't gone.
I'm fine at work. I love my job and sometimes hate to see 5:00 come because I'll have to go home.
How can I change this? I hate feeling this way.
Sometimes I wonder if it's really depression or I'm just pissed and this is my way of punishing my husband for being gone all the time. I hate his job and the way we live.
Feel like I'm drowning, but in what, I'm not sure.
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thread:528545
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