Posted by shrinking violet on June 30, 2005, at 12:38:13
In reply to Re: i want to die. » anastasia56, posted by lonelygal on January 10, 2005, at 22:33:52
{{{{{{{{{{{{Lonelygal}}}}}}}}}}}
I'm so sorry you're hurting so much right now. I know how you feel, I know it's hard. And you have every right to feel anger, even at your ex-T. As much as I miss my T, I have moments where I'm angry at her too. I feel deserted, betrayed, and I wonder how she could have supposedly "cared" about me so much when it was so easy for her to turn from me? I think it makes it worse in a way, too, b/c she (and your T) tried to show us that we are worthy to be cared about, but then they turned their backs and gave up and discarded us just like everyone else. But your T didn't stop working with you b/c she gave up, she wasn't able to see you anymore. Big difference. And it stinks that things worked out that way, it really is. But there's hope that you can see her again someday. I don't have that, unfortunately. Once your ex-T is licensed, perhaps you can see her again, even if it's just to mend the pain you have over terminating with her so abruptly. Is there any way you can give someone your information so they can contact you when she is licensed?
In the short time we've known each other, I've come to care what happens to you. And you're such a sweet person, with a lot to offer. I would personally be very upset if anything happened to you. Are you still seeing your new T? I know for a while things seemed to be going ok with her....how are they lately?
Please reach out to her, or someone. Babblemail me anytime, ok? And I'm on AIM periodically.
Please take care.
Wishing you peace,
sv
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